‘I was not disobedient to the heavenly vision’
We are each required to be faithful (or walk true) to the measure of light that we have received or been given. This is what is required of each man and woman.
Everything else flows from the above. As you walk true to the measure of light that you have, God in whom you live, move and have your being, will guide and determine your next steps.
Don’t try to live somebody else’s vision or truth, or pretend to be what you are not. Neither judge nor condemn others for not seeing the same things you do.
God’s love is deep and wide enough to guide each one of us safely home.